Saturn is the planet of timing, commitment and discipline. In astrology there is an approximately two year cycle known as Saturn’s Return that usually begins around age 28-30 and completes around age 30-32. During this time hard lessons are learned, decisions are made about what and who are going to stay in your life and what you’re going to leave behind. It’s not easy and it’s often painful but it is clarifying. They are lessons of maturation that must be learned in order to move on to the next chapter. To give you an idea of the kinds of things that happen, here are some that happened to me: change of career, cross country move after leaving the place I’d called home for almost a decade, commitment to a long term relationship via engagement, losing and regaining contact with my father over a two year period. Much of this has been painful, but now that I am mostly on the other side of it, I can say they were all things I needed to experience in order to gain the wisdom needed for the next parts of my life.
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